Lots has happened & I haven't written because I'm avoiding dealing with everything (most things).

Work
 Work is slowly sucking my soul out of my body. I literally have no work to do sometimes. I've started applying for jobs and have been luck enough to have two in-person interviews this week. One already has followed up to a second interview next week (yay!) and the other asked for my salary requirements. I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high but I am excited about making more money (I owe the IRS) and having actual work to do.

 
Sex
Doug came over last Friday and I couldn't have sex with him. I was simply not in the mood & didn't want him all over me. I told him I was tired & he said that was cool but I'm unsure if it was. It probably was. He then dropped the bombshell we should be using condoms so I don't get pregnant. When I explained that's what the IUD was doing he said he just felt more secure going back to condoms. This, of course, I said was fine but on the inside I felt like maybe he didn't trust me to manage our contraception. And I haven't seen him since mostly because I'm not in the mood (maybe meds, maybe mood) and also because I'm feeling a little rejected, even though I know that was not his intention.

Friends
Andy has traveled back to NYC to see his boyfriend & I'm starting to miss his presence. I know, intellectually, it will be hard to not see him 3 times a week but I've got a sneaking supposition I'm gonna fall to pieces a couple of weeks after he's gone. And with Rachel leaving I'll feel even more lonely. I'm secretly hoping there is an apartment here in the city that Steph can afford because I don't feel good about her moving to the east bay. Andy & I joke I've seen here more in NY than I will if she moves to Oakland. Sigh.....

Mom
My Mom is super frustrated at work. After 37 years of teaching she's had it. She used to love LOVE her job but now it's just something she has to do everyday. It's stressing me out because I fear I'm headed for the same thing if I don't settle down with a job (and soon). We still haven't talked about her moving again but I feel like I could tell her I'm not ready just now - how that will be received I'm not sure.


Granny 
I've called her three times in the last few weeks. Twice was to wish her happy birthday (I got the dates wrong) and once was just to talk while at lunch one day. It's was nice. And... She's stopped asking if I talked to my Dad. Of, course she still wants grandchildren but that's not going to happen & I just roll my eyes & laugh.